So that's what I meant when I said all my dreams came true. I got to be with Cait's dad and I got to be with Lucy, and Cait still loved me, and Cait and I realized we were going to be together forever.

And we both wanted Lucy to be a part of that, and we both moved on from that thing with her dad.
It wasn't like I fell out of love with him, but more like it just wasn't that important anymore, or maybe I just learned what real love is.

So now he was just Cait's dad, and maybe that helped when what happened later happened.

Because even when you're having a wonderful dream, sometimes bad things happen. Like, you're dreaming you're walking through a meadow, or something, and there are flowers everywhere and the sun is shining and birds are singing, and then suddenly the sky goes black and rabid wolves jump out of the bushes and chase you.

Wolves like when Lucy's mom died, or like those times when I thought I had lost Cait.

But for a long time, and up until one of the biggest, meanest, ugliest wolves of them all came, everything was great.
It was Cait and Lucy and me, and you can love more than just one person like that, and they can love you back.

If you tell them everything.

At first, I thought Lucy would eventually leave her boyfriend. I thought that would be inevitable, really, because it was supposed to be the three of us. And I wanted that to happen, I guess, and I kinda thought Cait and Lucy wanted that too. But when Lucy realized that's what I was thinking, she got angry, and she said, "No. Never!"

And that was okay anyway because Cait and I were there every weekend now. He usually wasn't home on the weekends, so the three of us would share their bed. And when he was home, Cait and I would sleep in our room, like before. But he knew everything.

It was Lucy's idea to make it so that it was all four of us. And to begin with, I thought that would be really cool, and Cait did too and she was even more excited about it than I was.
But then Lucy said, "If you love him too."

And I thought that was the strangest thing to say, but she looked at us like she wanted us to. Like she needed us to.

Cait didn't think it through, I think, because she just said, "Sure," and Lucy smiled and looked at me.

But I had to say, "Lucy, I don't know."

"Oh," Lucy said.

"I just... I guess I have to think about that," I said.

"Yeah, of course, I get it."

Later, Cait and I were on our way home. Cait was driving, of course, because after that first time, when I had taken mom's car and I had been away the whole weekend, and she had to take the bus and then another bus to get to work, she was so angry with me she swore she'd never let me borrow her car again, so it was always Cait driving.

"Do you really love him?" I said.

"Yeah. I mean, not like I love you, but that's impossible anyway. And not like I love Lucy. But with what's left, I guess."

And that kinda made sense, and then she said, "I think it's like a dad thing to me."

And that was like a revelation, like all the thoughts that had bundled up in my mind over the last couple of years until they were like a ball of yarn of stuff that didn't make sense at all, with knots and tangles everywhere, just suddenly came undone all at once.

Because it was like a dad thing for all of us. Lucy's dad had left her mom before she was even born, and Lucy's mom had never really gotten over that. And it was the same with my dad, and Lucy and I had always had that thing between us, like a bond even though we never talked about it.

A couple of times, when I was younger, I had asked mom about my dad, but she always got this look like she was angry, or maybe worried or just upset or something, and she'd just say she didn't want to talk about it, and I didn't really need to know anyway.

And then of course Cait and all the stuff with her dad, and Toby was someone she could see as a dad and at the same time a boyfriend and a lover and everything.

And I could too. I wanted that too.

So, two weeks or so later he was going to be home for the weekend, and when Cait and I got there they had made dinner for us, and we had a really good time and we had some wine after dinner.

And then Lucy said to him, "Maybe we can all share our bed tonight?"

I think he just took it as a joke at first because he laughed, but of course, he knew just like Cait and I did that Lucy would never joke about something like that, and he looked so bewildered, and he said, "Uh, I don't think that's a good idea."

Cait and I looked at each other, a bit shocked really that he wasn't jumping up and down with excitement, but I guess he was just being careful he wasn't walking into some kind of trap.

But Lucy tilted her head and looked at him with her puppy eyes, and she fluttered her eyelashes like she was about to cry, and there's not a creature in the universe that can say no to her when she does that.

"Are you sure?" he said.

"Yes," Lucy said. "Please?"

And so, of course, he said, "Yes. Okay, I mean, sure. Why not?" and now he was clearly struggling to not seem too excited about it.

"Yay!" Lucy said, and clapped her hands even, and then she grabbed his hand and pulled him with her, and they disappeared into the bedroom.

Cait and I looked at each other again and weren't really sure if we were supposed to go after them yet, but then after just a few seconds we both shrugged and emptied our glasses and then we did.

Lucy had already taken her clothes off, and when we walked in she only had her socks on. She walked up to me and started to undress me, and I actually felt a little nervous, and when I was naked she moved over to Cait and took her clothes off too. She didn't do it in a sexy way or anything like that but just pulled her sweater over her head and threw it on the floor, and then pulled her pants and panties and her socks off all at once and Cait laughed and said, "Slow down."

Lucy shook her head and said, "Nuh-uh", and then she pushed us both over to the bed.

We got on it, and he was just standing there watching us as we started to kiss and play with each other, and Lucy took the lead, for the first time ever really.

She lay down with Cait and me on each side of her, and she grabbed our heads and pulled us to her tits and we started to lick and suck her nipples. She moaned, and I put my hand on her pussy and she was already so wet, and smooth and slippery of course, and then Cait's hand joined mine and Lucy spread her legs.

And then she looked at him and said, "Come," and we watched as he took his clothes off.

We had seen him naked before now and then, but now his cock was big and hard and Lucy looked at it and said, "Mmm."
It wasn't as big as Cait's dad's, but almost, and it was rougher in a way but in a good way, and it was all shaved except for a rugged patch just above the root of it.

Lucy had told us one time that she made him do it like that, and I liked it.

He crawled up in the bed with us between Lucy's legs, and he put his cock inside of her right away. She moaned more and they kissed, and then she grabbed his chin and turned his face to me and I kissed him too, and then she turned him to Cait and she kissed him.

Cait kept kissing him and wouldn't let go of him, and Lucy looked at them and just smiled. I put my mouth on her nipples again, and my hand on her pussy, rubbing her clit with my palm, and my fingers on each side of his cock, and every time he pushed his cock deep in her my hand got stuck between them, and Lucy groaned.

Soon I could tell Lucy was about to come because she was grabbing at the headrest and pulling the sheets and the pillows, and pulling my hair and Cait's hair and everything, and she was curling her toes and all the things she would do just before and then she said, "Oh! Oh! Oh noo! Oh no! Oh!" and she came.

Cait and Toby were still kissing, and then he said "Oh fuck!" into her mouth, and he fucked Lucy faster and then he came too.

He sat up, and we figured he probably needed a minute. Cait crawled over Lucy and kinda pushed her away from the middle of the bed and took her place, and then she grabbed me and we kissed. I kissed my way down her body to her pussy and I licked her.

Lucy sat up with Toby and they kissed and she played with his cock, jerking him off, and I looked at them, still with my tongue on Cait's clit.

He was getting harder but he wasn't quite there yet, so I let go of Cait and took his cock in my mouth, and I sucked it until it was rock hard again.

I kept using my thumb on Cait's clit as I sucked him, but then I moved out of the way and he got between Cait's legs.

Cait suddenly looked at me and said, “Baby?” nervously, like she wasn't sure, and she pulled me to her, and I realized this was her first time ever with a guy.
I kissed her again and I stroked her hair, and she said, “I love you.”
And I held her tight as he fucked her.

And probably because he had already come once, he fucked her for so long, in different ways and she came over and over again.
Lucy and I just let them do it as we fucked each other next to them, and then after Cait's maybe third or fourth orgasm, he pulled himself out of her.
He moved over to me, and Lucy was licking me when he put the tip of his cock to my pussy. She grabbed it and guided it in for him, and then she kept licking my clit while he fucked me.

Cait just moved around from one to the other, kissing him, kissing Lucy, kissing me, until she finally just settled down sitting with her back to the headrest, masturbating.

Lucy saw that and sat up next to her, and they both rubbed themselves as they watched us, and he kissed me and then I came and I said, "Oohhhmmyggaah," and he came too, inside of me and it was warm and it was everywhere and it was wonderful.

So for a while, for months, it was the four of us, and it was perfect, like a dream.

And then everything fell apart.