About
I am a kinky queer polyamorous mixed race person.
Kinky as in BDSM... mostly into power dynamics, pain, controll etc, not so much bondege...
Queer as in, well in general! But as pertaining to gender and sexuality... mostly identify with being "female" as assigned at birth, but a gender non conforming and gender queer non binary one. Gender/gender presentation/genitals etc, is not a factor in who I am attracted to... although physical attraction is not always a big deal for me to begin with and I am somewhere in the "demiromantic" zone, I would probably say.
Polyamorous as in not monogamous... which in my case plays out in the form of not having a close partnership with any person, and having a few friends with whom sexy stuff also happens. Kind of a single by choice plus occasional "friends with benefits" situation if you will.
I am also an anarchist and feminist. There are many definitions of each of these things so I can only go by mine - I strive to collectively build a more just, equitable, horizontal, non oppressive and non capitalist non colonial world of free association (and "direct democracy" if you will)
I am a huge fan of Xan West's erotica and work in genral.
Also favourite "historical" person I am obsessed with is Fumiko Kaneko.
Interests
Beyond "interests"... I am very passionate about building collective liberation through mutual aid - challenging structurs of privilege that exists in this capitalist colonial empire... and am priveleged to be able to do this in my paid work as well as within the work that I do most of the rest of the time whether it is paid or not.
Interests for the most part at the moment are:
-Knitting
-Natural dying
(... and much other textile related stuff...)
-Creating hand made animations (mostly hand drawn and with paper puppets)
-Listening to metal music (mostly anything in the doomy spectrum, black metal, thrash, some death metal mostly deathdoom etc, also for non metal I like Celtic music, electronic music, dark ambient stuff, goth rock, post punk, post rock etc)
-Reading books related to feminism
Favorite Books
in erotica: Show Yourself to Me - Xan West
The Neverending Story - Michael Ende (also Momo!)
Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoevsky
All About Love - Bell Hooks
Caliban and the Witch - Silvia Federici
The Hobbit - J.R.R. Tolkien
Men Explain Things to Me - Rebecca Solnit
Into the Forest - Jean Hegland
Almost a Woman - Esmeralda Santiago
Favorite Authors
See above plus (... also because I felt that I could not include short stories in the "book" section) (also note that not all are fiction)
Franz Kafka
Leo Tolstoy
Ursula K LeGuin
H.P. Lovecraft
C.J. Jung
Virginia Woolf
George Orwell
Shunji Iwai
Favorite Movies
Pretty much all of Miyazaki Hayao's work. (Especially Nausicaa)
Also most of Takahata Isao's work (especially Kaguyahime)
Harold and Maude
2001 Space Odyssey
The Secret Garden
Shortbus
Waking Life
Star Wars (only the original 3 or, epidodes 4-6)
The Neverending Story
After Spring, the Tamaki Family…
All About Lily Chou-Chou (this film is really good and also made a pretty big emotional impact on me when I was 13 or so watching it...)
Fight Club
Many indipendantly made short animations ()
Favorite TV Shows
Twin Peaks
Columbo
Twilight Zone (there was an episode of it that totally traumatized me as a 7 year old)
Anne of Green Gables (original Canadian mini series, not the current one, although it sounds way more awesome)
Pride and Prejudice (BBC miniseries)
Serial Experiments Lain
also because it is not a category some favourite visual artists:
Salvador Dalí
Frida Kahlo
Erin M. Riley (textile artist)
Also not a category but a few visual novel games I have enjoyed:
Higurashi no Naku Koroni
Saya no Uta (totally "got my kink on" in many ways in this one... recommended by a childhood friend... isn't it great when they also turn out to be kinky adults " src="/images/emoticons/smile_regular.gif"> )
Favorite Music
see interests.
A few all time favourite bands include:
Darkthrone
Agalloch
Nevermore
Kreator
Slayer
Paradise Lost
Arkona (the Russian Folk Metal one)
A few current obsessions:
Epitaphe
Worm
Dusk
Biesy
Armoured Angel
Ulysses Siren
Other obsessions mostly of the female representation in extreme metal variety(but not only):
Sacrilege
November Grief
Bolt Thrower
Panopticon
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